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Rage is a novel published by Stephen King under the pseudonym Richard Bachman. The novel’s plot resembles actual school shootings that have transpired since the book’s publication, to a degree that the author is no longer comfortable with the book being in print for fear that it may inspire similar occurrences. As a result, King pulled the book of off shelves. (Source)

Its that time of year again when the great state of North Carolina decides to save some money by making me take a full month, 31 whole days, off from work. I will be able to collect some minuscule amount of unemployment, though I would rather be working. Of all the people who only have to take two weeks off, only one knows how to do my job and none want to. 

On top of that, the summer manager wants to mess with my hours. I usually work 5:30 am to 2:30 pm. I get there early enough to get all my vitally important work done before the students arrive and wreck the place. She says she needs me there at 7:00. That means I have to work my way around HORDES of people. That means that no actual cleaning will be achieved. Plus, it means that I would get off work at 4 pm. That gives me 30 minutes to walk home and another 30 minutes to show dress and get to class. She says that it is because I am the only housekeeper this summer. I was the only one last summer because I did all the work! The girl who “worked” with me got there an hour and a half after me so all the important stuff was done. On top of that, she lacked the upper body strength to take out the trash or run the floor machine! 

I have class at 5:00 pm! She told me that I need to be flexible! Why is it that I have to be more flexible than everyone else?! Its not my fault that they won’t hire more people! And I am most certainly not going to sacrifice my education for that place! Nursing School is my way out of that festering rats nest of a university!

Why won’t the world just DIE!?

Sometimes I wish one of those little bastards would go Virginia Tech and shoot up the place. I’d have a good chuckle and the fucker would end my suffering forever.

I work for the college I attended. Appalachian State University.

Because I had to graduate school at a time that the economy got screwed up and no one has made any great strides to fix it, I had to take whatever job I could get. Mine happens to be cleaning.

For over a year and a half, I have been doing the work of a permanent employee at temporary pay. I have no benefits and make about $10.90 an hour before taxes. Normally that would be ok, but I have to take TWO MONTHS off every year. So, it comes out to be a minimum wage job.

For the entire time I have done this job, my employers have been promising to make me a permanent member of the staff, which would mean $500 extra a month plus health benefits. Making permanent was dependent on another employee retiring, a 66 year old, 450 pound lazy retard with the social skills of a rabid dog and the work ethic of a log.

He leaves at the end of this week. Two different supervisors told me that I would still have to go through the regular application and interview process for the sake of formality and to conform to state laws.

Before I left work today, I asked my one of my supervisors (one of 5!) when the job will be posted on the employment website…

He said IT WAS NOT GOING TO BE POSTED.

That’s right! They have been jerking me around for a year and a half! They said that a lot more people would have to leave before I would be made a permanent employee!!!

I have put up with threats, belittlement, bigotry, ignorance and intolerance from a bunch of backwoods retards (my co-workers) and the bourgeoisie yuppy larva capitalist piglets ( the students) for going on two years now! And I have nothing to show for it! All that loyalty and rolling over! Not a God… Damned… THING!

The lesson children: Never be loyal to something that keeps you poor. Fight it in anyway you can because otherwise you are just breaking your back to make some son of a bitch rich! A son of a bitch that gets a 5 figure bonus at the end of the year for keeping operating cost as low as possible.

To give you the idea of the shit I have to put up with. I got called into the boss’s office and he said:

“Its come to my attention that you say that we promote racism here at ASU.”

“I never said that! I said that it happens! I was speaking out against it.”

I got called into the boss’s office and threatened with discipline for speaking out against racism for fuck’s sake! That is how much those fucks will go to smooth over everything!

There is an asshole there who harasses one of my friends for being Jewish, makes Holocaust jokes and got caught looking at looking at porn on company computers on company time and he has permanent pay and benefits when the racist perverted fuck should have lost his fucking job!

But its ok! As long as it does not become public knowledge!

Just turn a blind eye to racist jokes and hiring practices! Just remove the chairs and trays and tables that the students carve swastikas into! Its not a problem here!

… Because we delude ourselves into believing it does not happen at our quaint 93.5% white college! Ignorance is the best bliss and PR!

I now have new motivation to earn my CNA. TO GET THE FLYING FUCK OUT OF THIS CESSPOOL OF A UNIVERSITY!

Oh! And despite the rampant racism, homophobia, Islamophobia, and antisemitism that runs rampant. ASU made a top 10 list of schools who are the worst about freedom of speech! 

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/greg-lukianoff/the-10-worst-colleges-for_b_4475755.html

And just because you are white does not make you safe! The say all kinds of horrible things about Russians, Italians and Irish!

I know from experience. I made the mistake of letting them know that I am Irish! That meant that I was automatically an alcoholic, that I ate nothing but potatoes and that I was an IRA terrorist!

If your not a WASP you don’t belong in that hive!

And suddenly there was war
We didn’t remember it
A long time forgotten
There suddenly was war
And suddenly there was war
Our children are dead
Burnt in the ruins
That were left by war
War

And suddenly there was war
And the mothers they screamed
For revenge and reprisals
For another war
And suddenly
And suddenly
And suddenly there was war
With spoiling and death
And you fight alone
If there’s another war

Whole life is war
And whole life is pain
And you will fight alone
In your personal war
War

This is war
War

Ministry - Burning Inside

Will these dreams still follow me 
When the dark comes, curing time 
Can’t you see it up in the sky 
As it kicks you in the face and sucks you dry 
You never had the answers 
And now you tell me the facts are lies 
I really couldn’t be bothered with you 
Get out of my face and watch me die 
Burning inside! Burning inside! 

Absolution and a frozen room 
And the dreams of men below 
I try to grab it but the touch is hot 
The mirror collects it, but the image can not 
I’m scared of the darkness and the light 
I scare myself because I know I’m right 
I see the evil in your savage eye 
As it cuts right through the sky 
Burning inside! Burning inside! 

Calming the mantra with a blade in his skin 
For the demons within 
I feel the pain as we start to decay 
But the lesson never fades away 
Don’t need no shadows, turn them away 
Become a man through the window pane 
Another slave and a victim of fate 
Another lesson in hate 
Burning inside! Burning inside!