I got the job and apartment! I’ll be living and working in Hickory in about 2 weeks. I passed the interview and signed the lease today. I’ll soon be leaving Boone. 

At first I felt nostalgic. I’m going to miss Boone. I thought that I will never look at its hills or walk along its streets again. Then some idiot frat boy screamed at me from a passing car and laughed when I flinched. Then I remembered why I wanted to leave in the first place.

The up shot is that my cost of living is going to be much lower, but I will have to take about an dollar an hour cut due to my level of experience as a CNA. But, now I can get more certifications and that can raise my pay. Also I can learn other skill sets to get me out of CNA work. Its not a dream job by any stretch of the imagination but it will keep me alive until something better comes along. And I hope something better will come along. 

But, I will miss Boone. I hate change and I hate moving. My parents divorced when I was three and even though they lived in the same county, they moved around a lot and shared custody of me. I moved around a lot and not to sound to cliche but I loved the stability living in one place. But when all your friends move away and your family is a two hour drive away it makes for some lonely, desperate living.

I’ve come to a decision. I have got to leave Boone. I can’t deny it any longer. I love living in small towns but I HAVE to get out of this place! There is no future here even if I do get my medication aide certification.

There is nothing here for a young person except for a minimum wage slow death. As much as it pains me I have to escape. I might go to Charlotte or Raleigh, I don’t know which.

But I have always been scared of change. I know I’m in a rut but ruts can be familiar and easy to stay in but it will ultimately lead nowhere! Its daunting to move to a new place. You have to make sure that you have a job and a place to stay wait for when you get there. I never take risks or leave anything to chance because it always goes wrong for me.

It might take one year or two, but eventually I will leave this town.

I was going to go with my friend Will to the comic convention in Charlotte but a combination of things led to that getting fucked. 

As I have stated in previous posts, I have been on unemployment for the last month due to a break at work. This pisses me off for a number of reasons, the biggest being that my main source of income has been cut off. All those right-wing assholes on TV that say that people who draw unemployment are lazy bum that leach off the system are assholes and they are wrong. You barely scrape by on it. Thank God that I had this month’s rent taken care of before they sent me on break. Hopefully I will be full time next year and I will only have to be out of work for 2 weeks, and I will get more pay. 

Second is that Saturday is the only day for the rest of the year probably that I can get my surgery done at the free clinic in Wilkesboro. Dr. Chung will be there with his equipment. He is only there maybe 6 times a year. Even then he does not always bring his surgical equipment. 

One of these days I am going to tunnel out of this ocean of shit I’m in. 

On a lighter note, the PS3 I found is not functioning but the man at the store said that it can be repaired. It will be about a month before I do that. I thought Hunter would be bummed to hear that but she was cool with it. One of her brother’s friends said he would sell her his PS3 and its games. I think he is getting the PS4. I hope he give her a good deal on them. If not, she has mine as a back up plan. I am always a good bronze medal. 

Peace.

I talked to my mom tonight about my plans to take classes in nursing. She was ecstatic over it. She said that I would be perfect for it and that I would make a lot of money. She told me that she wanted to be a nurse too. But life got in the way, and by life the abysmal marriage straight out of high school to a man who was seven years older than her and treated her like shit. And, the demon hell-spawn child that was my sister. 

On another note. I might be getting a permanent position at work soon. One of my co-workers, the world’s laziest douche bag, is going to get his knee replaced next month. He weighs almost 400 pounds so he is not going to be coming back any time soon. On top of that, he is expected to retire this summer. He may have to hurry up and retire because of his knee which leaves me open to take his spot. That means almost $3 more per hour and state employee benefits. Yay.

I came to a conclusion today.

I want to be a nurse. 

I completed my college education last summer and went to work for the state of North Carolina. It is not my dream job, but it pays the bills. I realized that it has very little opportunity for advancement. So now that I have more desirable hours, I think that I will go to classes at the local community college and get a two year nursing degree. I want to have something with more practical applications than Political Science. If I can’t be a massive success, I can at least help people. 

I already have one male nurse in the family, I might as well be one too. Besides, other than History and Political Science, Biology was my best subject.