I talked to my mom tonight about my plans to take classes in nursing. She was ecstatic over it. She said that I would be perfect for it and that I would make a lot of money. She told me that she wanted to be a nurse too. But life got in the way, and by life the abysmal marriage straight out of high school to a man who was seven years older than her and treated her like shit. And, the demon hell-spawn child that was my sister. 

On another note. I might be getting a permanent position at work soon. One of my co-workers, the world’s laziest douche bag, is going to get his knee replaced next month. He weighs almost 400 pounds so he is not going to be coming back any time soon. On top of that, he is expected to retire this summer. He may have to hurry up and retire because of his knee which leaves me open to take his spot. That means almost $3 more per hour and state employee benefits. Yay.

I had a bad experience at work yesterday. 

My two co-workers, who have been becoming more clique-y and more exclusive toward me, started talking about one of our other co-workers and how great she was. They talked about how hard a worker she was and how they “didn’t have to tell her anything”, and how they could not wait for her to come back. So? Does that mean I am doing a bad job? 

I replaced this girl because she took time off from work because she was surprised to find out that she was 8 months pregnant! How does someone not notice that?!

Anyway, she was gone for and indeterminate amount of time and I could not get along with my current co-worker because he was a lazy, racist asshole. So, I took over her spot. I got along alright with everybody. I made my share of first timer mistakes, but I was praised up and down by my other co-workers and supervisors. They told me I worked much harder than her and kept the work area spotless. 

The two others I work with make me deal with the day to day running of the place and deal with the unwashed masses of humanity that shuffle through everyday while they do prep work in the back… and gab and gossip! They get away with the easy stuff and won’t let me learn how to do it in order to make sure that only they can do. They go on “field trips” together to get supplies and are gone for what seems like hours. They won’t come out to the front to help me, but then bitch at me if it is not perfect. 

Then they pull some shit on how much they liked that girl better, and how much they just loved working with her. I asked outright if that meant I was doing a shitty job and wanted me gone. They didn’t give me a straight answer. I am starting to dread work because of this. But, I brought it up with two different supervisors and a lady who has worked there for close to 20 years and they all said that I had nothing to worry about and that they would not return me to my old position with they douche bag.

On the bright side, two people are retiring and one is transferring. That means that people will be shuffled around and there will be new jobs to be had. I hope that I can transfer back down to the basement. Those people are bitchy but they are upfront about. It is nothing that I had not put up with from them for the last 5 years. 

I just want to get on as a permanent from a temporary. Any hell the give me will be well worth $12.50 a hour with full state employee benefits. I have endured much worse for much less to show for it.