people jest but this is literally how i worked out i was gaslit for like 15 years of my life

People who “want trauma” are recognizing, on some level, that they were traumatized but in a way that’s not “socially recognized” as trauma. What they really want is for people to see that they’ve been traumatized and be on their side

Hold up

I think it’s also important to talk about mental illness, and how the pain and trauma of being mentally ill as a kid is often diminished because of the lack of outside actors. If you spent your childhood being suicidally depressed because your wee little kiddo brain decided to be a chemical shitshow, it doesn’t matter how much mom and dad loved you, that kinda thing fucks you up. And having people only look at your external surroundings and argue that “nothing bad happened” ignores all the pain you went through internally. So wishing you could have something external you could point to in order to justify that pain and enduring stress -- just so people could understand -- makes sense. 

Posts that diagnose me, drag me, and rewire the synapses in my brain.

I’ve always felt that the reason kids who have been through trauma or most mental illnesses are attracted to darker themed media/books/etc..  It’s often the only place there is acknowledgment that things are not all right.  even if it’s just fictional, it’s validation.

this week on tumblr slaps me in the face with things i didn’t know i needed to talk to my therapist about