Is my behaviour a symptom of abuse? Masterlist

Outside symptoms

• Offering comfort and compassion while never receiving or asking
• You’re hyper-independent and never ask for help
• You downplay all the pain you felt thru your childhood
• You’re so scared of failure it’s difficult to start anything
• You struggle to take credit for things you did
• You’ve can sense other people’s emotions as if they’re yours
• You feel obliged to nurture, please and care for others
  
• You struggle with chronic exhaustion and chronic pain
  
• You don’t complain because ‘others have it worse’
  
• You have the ability to endure everything to prove you’re strong
  
• Living your life in fiction and Magical thinking
  
• You had/have experiences with self harm
• You’re scared to cut off toxic people from your life
• Loud noises and figures of authority give you anxiety
• Overtaking responsibility for everything
• You feel compulsed to ‘act normal’ in every situation
  
• You blame yourself for being stressed and procrastinating
• You struggle with deep breathing, palpitations, overheating, dry mouth

Inside symptoms

• Emotional symptoms of long term abuse
• You have low self esteem and experience self-hatred
• You feel that you need to be perfect, but others don’t have to
  
• You crave approval from others very intensely
• Anxiety while doing mundane tasks (cooking, cleaning, going out)
• You don’t take happiness for granted, it scares you instead
  
• You constantly feel pain and like ‘you need to get it together’
• You’re afraid to feel your own emotions, you need a permission
• You wish you had a physical evidence of abuse so it would count
  
• You feel overwhelming guilt for things that happened to you
• Confusing gaps in memory
  
• You have cptsd symptoms
• You struggle with intrusive thoughts and images
• You’re always thinking ‘it wasn’t that bad’
• You’re uncomfortable with being comforted
• You feel as if you crave abuse
• You have trauma symptoms from childhood abuse
• You have a sense of foreshortened future
• You believe a tougher life will make you stronger
• You believe that everyone deserves compassion except you