I am just typing something, anything here. I am in a state of mind that I can’t focus. I picked up a book and i could not bring myself to make sense of the words. I think that this is helping the situation tho. I feel restless but I don’t want to go anywhere. I feel the need for stimulation but I can’t focus. I feel lucid but everything seems to be going wrong. Oh, man. Its taking a lot of will power to get this down as it comes. 

I just took a shower and I think the water was too hot and it over heated me. Since I am running a temperature anyway it was probably not a good idea but it felt so good. I am definitely getting out of the house tomorrow. 

I don’t know what went wrong but baby something went wrong. 

I need jager god damn it.